Loveless

Hi there, do you believe in true love? Well, I don't believe in true love.

What is true love? It's a fairy tale kind of thing based on Summer (500 days of summer) although in the end she admitted that she was wrong, but I totally agree with her first impression about true love. True love is only for those romantic movies, dreams that people like to have, but just a dream anyway. Girls believe in true love just like kids believe in Santa Claus. There is no true love, people were being trapped by those fairy tales. Relationship is tiring, you need to understand one each other for a piece of love?



On the other side - The Strokes

I'm tired of everyone I know,
of everyone I see
on the street
and on TV.

On the other side,
on the other side
nobody's waiting for me.
On the other side

I hate them all.
I hate them all.
I hate myself for hating them,
so I'll drink some more.
I love them all.
I'll drink even more.
I'll hate them even more
than I did before.

On the other side,
on the other side
nobody's waiting for me.
On the other side.

I remember when you came,
you taught me how to sing.
Now, it's seems so far away.
You taught me how to sing...

I'm tired of being so judgemental
of everyone
I will not go to sleep.
I will train my eyes to see
that my mind is as blind
as a branch on a tree.

On the other side,
on the other side.
I know what's waiting for me.
On the other side.
On the other side,
on the other side
I know you're waiting for me.
On the other side.

01.01.2010

Hi..
Hello..
2010

It's a pleasure to meet you. Please be kind to me. I'm gonna need to make some deals with you Mr (or Miss) 2010.

1. If I'm a good girl within 2010, please be nice to me as well
2. If I'm a bit naughty in the beginning of 2010, please let me know before its too late
3. If possible, can I travel to Melbourne to meet my friend Nana in the mid of 2010? or maybe going to US?
4. Hmm, which part I need to focus to improve myself? I want to become healthier, tidier, more organize and can I get a job in the place I want?

That's all for now.. Don't forget, Please be nice to me Mr (or Miss) 2010

Cheers!

I'M DONEE!!

Just finished my last final exam. It wasn't that bad. Hope will get an A for this subject. Thesis & internship to go, after that I'm done from this uni life. FINALLY!!!

Thanks GOD ;)

The Last Final Exam

I'm supposed to study, but here I am chatting my time away, browsing and stalking. Tomorrow (oh well, in 12 more hours) I'm gonna have my last final exam. Hows it gonna be? Actually, I don't feel that I'm ready enough to finish everything, but I really want to finish this degree thingy soon. I hope I can pass. I hope I can get a good mark.

So, hello future please please please please let me get what I want ;)

Oh Noooo

I started to do online shopping. I used to get highly addicted to ebay, but I've stopped since 1 year ago. But I just found out about Malaysian online shopping, they provided branded bags with a good price. I couldn't resisted, just bought one. The seller said my bag will come tomorrow, yeaahh! I hope it will be good. See you tomorrow my new bag

Cheerio

My wedding day

Hey you

I don't know (yet) who you are. I don't know what are the things we've been through until we finally here. Because you're gonna marry me anytime soon, I hope you can understand why I'm writing this for you.

I've imagined my wedding day since I can't remember. I've changed my taste of music 100 times, I've changed partners, I've changed here and there. But there are something I want to ask you, I wont change my mind for these.

The List for our wedding day:

1. I want God Only Knows as our wedding song. I found this song as the most romantic but yet realistic love song. I do realized that you are the best for me (that's why I wanna marry you) but this is not our happy ending. This is our beginning, so I don't wanna stay in fairytale world, I want everything to be realistic, since the beginning.

2. I don't want to put too much make up. I want to be the real me. You're marrying me, not the queen for one day.

3. If possible, I want to make it small and romantic. Then we can save the money to run away from all those responsibilities. Let's go to Maldives or somewhere baby.

4. Don't spend too much money in our wedding

5. Keep the cake small

6. I want wine as our wedding souvenirs :)

7. Keep it real and everlasting

8. Let me do the list for our wedding songs

I think that's all for now. I hope you can understand. If you're really rich, maybe we can ask Jens Lekman to sing at our wedding.

The wedding songs:

1. God Only Knows - The Beach Boys
2. When I'm Sixty Four - The Beatles
3. Don't Worry Baby - The Beach Boys
4. Dedicated to the one I love - The Mamas and The Papas
5. Everybody's Gonna Be Happy - The Kinks

Oh yeah, on our wedding anniversary, please listening to When I'm Sixty Four - The Beatles over and over again.

I Love You

Let's keep it realistic and everlasting

See you soon my very special one ;)

Who Am I?

Well, this is my last semester. Next semester, I must do my thesis and internship. There are so many things happening this year. Sadly, after I've been through so many things, I still don't know who is the girl inside me. I couldn't be truthfully honest to everyone. I couldn't tell everything even to the most important people in my life.

If I need to fill up the most honest "About Me", it would be like this;

My name is Jessica Valentina (I don't like the fact that my birth certificate spelled my name as Jessicha). I'm 23 years old, currently I'm pursuing a degree in Mass Communication. I love the fact that I have a big family. I love my nephews and nieces, especially Darren. I hate cat, I hate hypocrite people, I hate you most of the time. I love myself, I love to see that I'm unbeatable for almost everything. I'm really good in complaining about people. I'm good in doing others' assignments, but not really good in my assignments.

I LOVE:
* my blue pillow
* Darren
* my parents
* lyrics
* good movies
* being unreachable
* being the most reliable person
* being the first one for almost everything
* anything that people don't like
* YOU, if you think I'm hard to get and smart
* shopping
* stalking people's blogs
* being the most informative person
* rainy day
* to make my exes' current girlfriends feel insecure ;]
* to make you feel insecure

I hate:
* CAT
* people who think they know everything
* people who love to pretend
* people who think that he/she is the most unique creature but the fact he/she just a person with a common taste
* people who got the last laugh
* sunny day
* YOU, if you think you are the most perfect creature in this world

The jobs I've done this year:
* waitress at house + co
* sales assistant at blueberry
* selling clothes door to door
* assignments service
* sales promotion girl (will do it this weekend)

What I wanna do next year:
?????

What I wanna be in the next five years:
?????

Do you love me?
Do you think you will be able to spend the rest of your life with me?
Am I good enough for you?
Am I tough?