absolutely cuckoo

I wanna write so many things, but I got frustrated with the internet connection.

Current Addictions:
* Into eternity - Jens Lekman
"I'll choose this moment with you in my arms"
* a long chat with darren
* long distance call

Well, maybe some other time then.

cheerio

Arrivals Gate

Here I am, sitting on departures gate.

I started to think about the arrivals gate.

From Love Actually:

“Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.”

I do love arrivals gate. Arrivals gate is the place for happiness. Seeing someone you've been waiting for. When we have a holiday, going to the departures gate is interesting. But when you've reached the arrivals gate, the journey begins.

Departures gate brings sadness. This is the place when you need to leave something or someone. The place when the cries and goodbyes meet. The place to move on or maybe the place for separation (even it's just for a while)

Well, I'm waiting for the arrivals gate in Jakarta. After that, wait me in the arrivals gate of KLIA my dear. I'm living for that day. The day to meet someone I've loved in the arrivals gate.

cheerio

Oh Dear

I'm going homeee..

Am I happy?
Hmmm yeah.

After the bad experience with Lion Air (I've promised to myself that I wont take Lion Air again) I'm glad that I can go home today.

I'll meet my family, Darren (aahh)

But I've left my heart here in Malaysia.

I'll be back on 3rd of January 2009.

A new year.

Oh my dear future
I don't know what will you be like
Oh my dear future
I hope everything will be alright
Oh dear
Can't wait to see you in the future

Well, I can't wait for the 3rd of January.

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PS; oh dear, please keep my heart with you. Until I see you again (3rd of January for sure!)

JENS LEKMAN & VIKTOR SJOBERG - ASIAN TOUR

Jens Lekman's finally here. Last night was the last day for his Asian Tour. The show in Bandung is canceled because of the airlines problem (miss flight, haha). Luckily, he still wants to fly all the way from Hong Kong to here, Kuala Lumpur (actually, he should).

The uncertainties of the show were quite high. I hadn't had the tickets until last night. I reached Annexe Gallery at 7.40 pm, but the tickets were not on sale yet. I waited until 8-ish to get the tickets, well it wasn't even a ticket its just stamp in my hand.

When I reached there, Jens Lekman & Viktor Sjoberg was doing the sound check. I was able to see them to do the sound check, Jens Lekman was playing "Another Sweet Summersnight On Hammer Hill ". It feels so good to see him there. I've never imagined that I would be that "close" to him.

I was so hungry, but I chose to be there. Yes, that's the right decision, because after the sound check I got to meet him.

He was sweet enough to the fans. I took pictures with him and he even signed the Polaroid after that.


The show started at 9 pm. 30 minutes late from the schedule. I was so excited.. The opening acts were Silent Scenery and Stoned Revivals. Silent Scenery wasn't that good, maybe because they're not complete and lack of preparation. In fact, it was kinda boring. After that Stoned Revivals came with more preparation. Stoned Revivals was not that disappointed. It was good enough, if I wasn't waiting for Jens Lekman.



Jens Lekman and Viktor Sjoberg played the first song "I'm leaving you, because I don't love you". Audience was still sitting and after that song Jens asked the audience to stand up. The real show started.

Jens played "The opposite of Hallelujah", "Julie", "A postcard to Nina", "You are the light", "Black Cab", "Shirin" and a lot more. He played the songs about his pen pal into his hairdresser. He played the songs, he joked, he was interacting with the audience, he just melted everyone's hearts. He acted, he sings the rhyme, and he has made the small crowd having fun in the Tuesday night.

His baritone voice definitely melted the girls' hearts. His jokes have made the guys laugh. He did some freaky things. He sings from his heart. He made the audience dancing and singing together. He successfully made us feeling happy into eternity.

He should get more than just RM 30. The waiting was worth it. I did have a lot of fun. Even the equipments were not that good, but he had made it part of the show. He just said that he hates technology and started singing without microphone; it has covered the disappointment in audience's heart. I missed his ukulele though; I wish I could see him singing with the ukulele. But that's alright.

The show ends with the clip of him flying an airplane. He sang "Into eternity" Both of them came to the audience and they were dancing with the audience. Then he said if we want more, he will sings to us one by one because his songs has deep meaning for him. The naiveness of me, I feel that all of his songs are the reflection of his self. It's honest and he just being honest with his sarcastic jokes. And that's why I love him more.

I love small gig when the audience could get in touch with the band. I think Jens Lekman's show shouldn't get bigger. Bcos that's the selling point from listening to his songs. He just the singer in the cafe with baritone voice that has melted the girls' hearts. He needs to be close to the audience, to get in touch and leaving the audience with the unforgettable moment and indescribable feeling.Yes he's worth more than RM 30, I wouldn't mind paying RM 200 for him. But I want the same small crowd.

I enjoyed the show. Satisfied. But I want more..... Well, I just need to make believe. Until the next show Jens..

Yours Truly,

Chika

The Day

Today is December 9, 2008. December 9, 2008 is suppose to be the happiest day in December for Chika. Chika's exam has finished. She's going to Jens Lekman's show tonight. She has been waiting for today since two weeks ago.

But, here she is. Writing her blog and feeling lonely.

Lonely?

Indeed, lonely..

She doesn't has anything to do. She's hungry but has no one to go lunch with. She's watching Serendipity from surfthechannel. She wants to go home.......

Now, she started to think that waiting for today is a lot more exciting than today itself.

Preparing for today is a lot more interesting than having today without the excitement..

She's hoping the show tonight will cure her loneliness.

She needs the night.

:(

Boisa-Bis-O-Boisa

Charlie checked www.jenslekman.com two weeks ago, then he found that Jens Lekman is having Asian Tour. yeayy!

ASIA
Dec ? - Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia - TBA
Dec 6 - Bandung, Indonesia - dirgantara I IPTN
Dec 4 - Shanghai, China - Glamour
Dec 3 - Shanghai, China- JZ Club
Dec 2 - Beijing, China - MAO Live
Dec 1 - Singapore - The White Rabbit LINK
Nov 30 - Seoul, South Korea - Freebird
Nov 29 - Seoul, South Korea - Freebird

AARRGGHHH... I wanted to scream when I see the schedule. I have final exam on Dec 4 -6. It's impossible for me to go to Singapore on the Dec 1 or going back to Bandung on Dec 6, huhu.


I chatted with my friend, Poppy, she's going to watch Jens Lekman in Bandung. She told me that her friend is a photographer for Jens Lekman's opening band and the gig will be held in The Annexe Gallery, Central Market.

I've been waiting for few days, but The Annexe Gallery hasn't updated their calendar yet (until now!)

I called The Annexe Gallery last Monday, they are confirm that Jens Lekman will be there on Dec 9(yay!), ticket price around RM 30-35. The person in The Annexe Gallery gave me an email of Jens Lekman's event organizer in Malaysia. I emailed him asking about how to get the ticket, and he replied "tickets will be available at the venue at the date of the show and the show will start at 8.30 pm."

I've decided that I'll come at 5 pm, hihi.

Well, I still have final exam before that gig. I'm studying Communication Theory right now (oh mercy mercy me Mr. Kannan), I learned about Uncertainty Reduction Theory. One of the axioms stated that when the level of uncertainty is high, seeking information behavior increases. I guess that theory is absolutely correct for my case. When the uncertainty of Jens Lekman's gig is high, I have high level of seeking information behavior. I've checked The Annexe Gallery events, called the person and emailed the EO. I'm so glad that I can apply this theory to real life experience (maksa, hehe)

Wish me luck for the exams and Jens, I'm truly yours.














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Life and Death

My cousin passed away last night. She was having a kidney disease. She had been suffering for couple of years. Her family had been trying so hard to keep her alive. Last night, she gave up. Honestly, I'm glad that she has given her life up. At least she does not need to deal with pains anymore. I'm sad though, I wish I could get to know her better. She was only two years older than me, but we're living in totally different life. She has two kids, I'm still studying. She has faced a lot of things and I'm lucky enough to be me! Indeed, I'm just so blessed compare to her.

Her death has leaded me to think about life and death. I was thinking about her. Does she regret her life? What is she doing right now? Is she really going to be around for 40 days? Or she just simply disappears? Is there anything she wants to do before her death? What were the things going in her mind when she knows her time is coming soon? She has entered the critical condition since 2 pm, but she gave up at night, what was she waiting for? Is she ready for this?

Then, I started to think about myself. Firstly, what have I done so far with my life? The answer is none. I do have a lot fun with my life, but there is nothing more. Just fun. I haven't achieved any of my goals. I just go with the flow, trying not to think about anything beyond my things, having fun, do my assignments, pray a bit and that's all. I want to have more quality time and experiences in my life. I want to understand the meaning of life. But, on the other side, I want to avoid all the responsibilities I should face in the future, I just want to stand here and enjoying my time. Now, I want some changes; I want to have more meaningful life.

Secondly, death. What is life after death? People are keep debating about death; reincarnation, heaven or hell, totally disappear or whatsoever. No one really knows about the life after death is. It's funny for me, because while people become expert in life after death fields (something they aren't really sure and have no experience at all), they are forgetting about life itself. What is life? How to have a meaningful life?

I'm scared of death. I don't know what will happen next. Therefore, I just want to think about life. Based on my life these days, I'm sure that I will get to hell, if heaven or hell really exists. I have committed a lot of sins, something that I have regretted but repeating it in the next day. So yah, I don't want to think about it. Life is much more important for me. Just forget about death or something you're not really sure. Do what are you suppose to do. Make a meaningful life, don't deal with any regrets.

Farewell my dear cousin, peace be with you.