My wedding day

Hey you

I don't know (yet) who you are. I don't know what are the things we've been through until we finally here. Because you're gonna marry me anytime soon, I hope you can understand why I'm writing this for you.

I've imagined my wedding day since I can't remember. I've changed my taste of music 100 times, I've changed partners, I've changed here and there. But there are something I want to ask you, I wont change my mind for these.

The List for our wedding day:

1. I want God Only Knows as our wedding song. I found this song as the most romantic but yet realistic love song. I do realized that you are the best for me (that's why I wanna marry you) but this is not our happy ending. This is our beginning, so I don't wanna stay in fairytale world, I want everything to be realistic, since the beginning.

2. I don't want to put too much make up. I want to be the real me. You're marrying me, not the queen for one day.

3. If possible, I want to make it small and romantic. Then we can save the money to run away from all those responsibilities. Let's go to Maldives or somewhere baby.

4. Don't spend too much money in our wedding

5. Keep the cake small

6. I want wine as our wedding souvenirs :)

7. Keep it real and everlasting

8. Let me do the list for our wedding songs

I think that's all for now. I hope you can understand. If you're really rich, maybe we can ask Jens Lekman to sing at our wedding.

The wedding songs:

1. God Only Knows - The Beach Boys
2. When I'm Sixty Four - The Beatles
3. Don't Worry Baby - The Beach Boys
4. Dedicated to the one I love - The Mamas and The Papas
5. Everybody's Gonna Be Happy - The Kinks

Oh yeah, on our wedding anniversary, please listening to When I'm Sixty Four - The Beatles over and over again.

I Love You

Let's keep it realistic and everlasting

See you soon my very special one ;)

Who Am I?

Well, this is my last semester. Next semester, I must do my thesis and internship. There are so many things happening this year. Sadly, after I've been through so many things, I still don't know who is the girl inside me. I couldn't be truthfully honest to everyone. I couldn't tell everything even to the most important people in my life.

If I need to fill up the most honest "About Me", it would be like this;

My name is Jessica Valentina (I don't like the fact that my birth certificate spelled my name as Jessicha). I'm 23 years old, currently I'm pursuing a degree in Mass Communication. I love the fact that I have a big family. I love my nephews and nieces, especially Darren. I hate cat, I hate hypocrite people, I hate you most of the time. I love myself, I love to see that I'm unbeatable for almost everything. I'm really good in complaining about people. I'm good in doing others' assignments, but not really good in my assignments.

I LOVE:
* my blue pillow
* Darren
* my parents
* lyrics
* good movies
* being unreachable
* being the most reliable person
* being the first one for almost everything
* anything that people don't like
* YOU, if you think I'm hard to get and smart
* shopping
* stalking people's blogs
* being the most informative person
* rainy day
* to make my exes' current girlfriends feel insecure ;]
* to make you feel insecure

I hate:
* CAT
* people who think they know everything
* people who love to pretend
* people who think that he/she is the most unique creature but the fact he/she just a person with a common taste
* people who got the last laugh
* sunny day
* YOU, if you think you are the most perfect creature in this world

The jobs I've done this year:
* waitress at house + co
* sales assistant at blueberry
* selling clothes door to door
* assignments service
* sales promotion girl (will do it this weekend)

What I wanna do next year:
?????

What I wanna be in the next five years:
?????

Do you love me?
Do you think you will be able to spend the rest of your life with me?
Am I good enough for you?
Am I tough?